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“wag isasama ang damdamin, chat lang yan” yan ang pabirong sabi ni pañero sa tropa kapag nagmamadali na kami papunta sa iskul¹. masyadong nahumaling ang tropa noon sa pangangalunya², halos gabi-gabi ay laman kami ng internet cafe, nood ng show, chat sa mga kapwa ofw sa ibang bansa. ang saya naman kasi kapag may nakaka-usap ka, kahit paano ay nakakawala ng homesickness.

although libangan lang ang intensyon mo sa simula, di mo namamalayang nahuhulog ka na sa patibong, the possibility of falling in love with the one you are talking to is always there. minsan ko ng naikwento ang nangyari kay diego, common na siguro ito. a person falling in love with someone he/she barely knew or by just seeing the flickering image on the webcam.

i myself had experienced this, several time i fall prey to the lure that i myself had created. i’m not saying that it’s bad, in fact i had a wonderful experience while i was in those relationship. kahit na may kulang sa ganoong uri ng relasyon, isa na rito ang aktwal na pagkikita, yet it fills an empty space in me. ang di pagkikita ay di nangangahulugang mas madaling kumalas sa ganoong sitwasyon, letting go is as painful as it was in a “real” relationship.

now that i’m returning my presence in the cyber space [chat in particular], i am once again tempted in passing the same path. ayokong magsalita ng tapos, hindi ko naman kailangang iwasan ito. siguro the best thing that i can do is to make sure that i won’t be hurt in the end and i won’t be hurting anyone in the process.
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1. internet cafè [↩]
2. most commonly known as chatting [↩]